I feel like I am doing the best I can. Is my ship sailing on calm seas in sunny weather? No. Do the strategies I have been given work as well irl as on paper? No, but I do my best and I am comfortable with that.

Absolutely not! But we muddle through the best we can, and somehow we're surviving.

That’s great. At least you’re honest. I’m glad you’re comfortable with it. I’m trying to be comfortable with doing my best and stop beating up myself for not knowing everything and being perfect.

A lot of trial and error in the beginning. My son is 17 and sometimes it's hard to figure him out.

This subject is a trigger for most. Especially for those that are in the beginning of their diagnosis. Hell we are still in the beginning. Most of the time I feel I’m fighting for Aziel’s form of ASD instead of being accepted. It makes me feel like I know nothing, like my researches I dedicated hours on to know about autism and the spectrum mean nothing. It makes me feel like I’ve wasted my time pushing for help for our son when professionals argue against it. So, no I do not have it together and no I don't know what I am doing most of the time. I can only hope that it is enough for Aziel to know he has me in his corner when he is able to understand later down the road. I can only hope that Aziel will never be treated how I have been treated during this journey when dealing with medical professionals. I can only hope that he gets what he needs now so he won’t need these people in his life to live or succeed. That’s all I can do. It kills me to see how this world is being divided over the smallest things to the biggest things and the fear of my son having to learn and see all this. It blows my mind. I hope my response helped. Stay strong! 💪🏽 🫶🏼